Think.

Why u always think of something that does not imprtant much to u? Its only some kinda entertainment that only comes whenever u feel like u want to revenged and released the tension. When its going to dissapear, u start worrying about the losing, the loneliness that u going to faced and go through. U afraid of losing it instead of u hate to love and like it. U hate it if u going to like it but at the same time u afraid of losing it. I dont know what is that feeling. I dont know why i talked much about u here. This really doesnt make sense at all. Its feel so stupid and fucked off. I dont know u. I never see ur face. I dont even know where r u coming from. U just a tiny thing that simply pass by my journey and u stop a while just to get to know all people around u. And one of the people is me. I guess...
I believed that there will be come a moment that u will keep continuing ur journey to get to know more people and i will be leave alone again with my fuckin boring day. I believe the day will come..Please stop intefering in my mind. U dont know much about me and so do i. Its enough if we just being together just to share the laughter. Thats it. Its not a must for me to cared and waiting for you.

Bye...

I hope i did something good and right

Its Tuesday Nov23...this past few days..i just find some new thing to enjoy my boring and lonely life. Its not the new thing because i always dump 'it' whenever i felt guilty towards me n him. But now i take it back n started to feel the enjoyment and the happiness of being spend and share your time with something else that u never think of it before.

I promised to myself that im going to open up my mind to discover all the 'thing' around me. I never let myself to entertain myself instead of giving all my fucking boring time only to someone else. Until i found out that 'that-someone else' is really trying to enjoying its time with life around its daily routine.

I hope i did something good and right. I didnt mean to lied and cheat because i really wanna try this and want to see how far i can go and how far that things mean to be. Sometimes we just trying to act better and perfect for someone that doesnt cared much for us. They cared for us, just that the way they think and act is not the same as the way we wished it to happened.

I did learned something yesterday. Momo open my eye wide open. Momo tells me what man secrets ever. The reason they did the thing that we think is wrong. I wished i knew these long time ago. But whatever thing me n momo done, we just only a going-to-be-good-friend. A good listener and a trustfull friend.

Bye...