Sort of....

Hari ini aku rasa mcm2...jiwa kosong, bosan, fikiran melayang, malas, rindu, confused...dan byk lagi la...

Baru balik dr office retreat semalam dekat sematan palm beach resort. While him was far away from me..he was currently at Betong & Sibu this whole week. Boring nyeeee...i miss u babe!!

Kerja kt ofis tersangatlah malas nak dibuat. This afternoon i was picking up my friend at the airport. Wish that we can go out watch the movie tp xjadi pulak coz one of my friend nak ekot tp she can only out by tomorrow nite. So terpaksa la tukar plan...hmmm..boringgg...

What shud i do tonite?...damn bored...watch dvds?watch movies alone?window shopping?..dont know why im felt damn bored today..lalalalallaaa...

As he ever say to me..ONE DAY I WILL BROKE THE PROMISE AGAIN...and him was truly right...

Babe...im sorry n really sorry..

I made too many wrong things while we are together. I keep saying sorry n promising, n u keep forgiving me n give me chances. I just dont know whats wrong with me. Why i keep doubting about every single thing that u doing to me. My distrusfull towards u keep growing without im realising its just another disaster that will make u runaway from me one day..

Why im always keep doing that? im just dont know..im too young n i just learned the experienced of the loveness feeling while i met u n be together with u. I just learned the feeling of 'afraid of the loseness', 'the jealousy when im so into u'. I cant even control my jealousy.

I just make u hate me more. Please my saviour GOD. Show me the correct path. I dont have anyone else..i keep asking for "i wish if that could be someone else that can..." i keep begging n questioning that question..without im realising..im too far away from u GOD. Why im so blind n didnt realise that only YOU i can seeking the solace..Only YOU can guide me to the correct path. Not my friend, not myself, not him..but YOU..only YOU.

My Almighty God..always be with me...n show me the correct path..Amen..

Think.

Why u always think of something that does not imprtant much to u? Its only some kinda entertainment that only comes whenever u feel like u want to revenged and released the tension. When its going to dissapear, u start worrying about the losing, the loneliness that u going to faced and go through. U afraid of losing it instead of u hate to love and like it. U hate it if u going to like it but at the same time u afraid of losing it. I dont know what is that feeling. I dont know why i talked much about u here. This really doesnt make sense at all. Its feel so stupid and fucked off. I dont know u. I never see ur face. I dont even know where r u coming from. U just a tiny thing that simply pass by my journey and u stop a while just to get to know all people around u. And one of the people is me. I guess...
I believed that there will be come a moment that u will keep continuing ur journey to get to know more people and i will be leave alone again with my fuckin boring day. I believe the day will come..Please stop intefering in my mind. U dont know much about me and so do i. Its enough if we just being together just to share the laughter. Thats it. Its not a must for me to cared and waiting for you.

Bye...

I hope i did something good and right

Its Tuesday Nov23...this past few days..i just find some new thing to enjoy my boring and lonely life. Its not the new thing because i always dump 'it' whenever i felt guilty towards me n him. But now i take it back n started to feel the enjoyment and the happiness of being spend and share your time with something else that u never think of it before.

I promised to myself that im going to open up my mind to discover all the 'thing' around me. I never let myself to entertain myself instead of giving all my fucking boring time only to someone else. Until i found out that 'that-someone else' is really trying to enjoying its time with life around its daily routine.

I hope i did something good and right. I didnt mean to lied and cheat because i really wanna try this and want to see how far i can go and how far that things mean to be. Sometimes we just trying to act better and perfect for someone that doesnt cared much for us. They cared for us, just that the way they think and act is not the same as the way we wished it to happened.

I did learned something yesterday. Momo open my eye wide open. Momo tells me what man secrets ever. The reason they did the thing that we think is wrong. I wished i knew these long time ago. But whatever thing me n momo done, we just only a going-to-be-good-friend. A good listener and a trustfull friend.

Bye...

I wish the weather would stay like this...absolutely perfect..

Today I am very happy.
The gloomy weather, the laziness feeling that i had, facebook open at all the times.

Yesterday I received very good news which MARA has just feedback me about the application of MARA loan reduction. From the total of RM13 + + + I only need to pay RM13 + + only. Almost 90% reduction given by them. Two thumbs up for all of our hardwork while dealing with kcj, ipts, mqa and mara ppl. I am very grateful to the Lord on the patience that was given to me.

Now i can lived my life with less financial problems. And more to come...yes it is...still MORE to come...but thanks..2 of it is over now...

Bye.

Ong Bak 3

Ong Bak 3 picks up where Ong Bak 2 had left off. Tien is captured and almost beaten to death before he is saved and brought back to the Kana Khone villagers. There he is taught meditation and how to deal with his Karma, but very soon his arch rival returns challenging Tien for a final duel.

Although I've just watched the third series, I think the film is great and fun to watch. The storyline is easy to understand. Hmmmm .. I miss watching the thai ghost story ..

Bye..

The Last Airbender

Greetings to my page ... a bit cloudy this morning. This week I have the opportunity to meet my old friends while still studying at college years ago. I will not forget all the fun that we had together. Thanks for making my night a little different..The memory is memorable stay. We watch the movie named The Last Airbender. I hope i spelled it correctly. At first, we want to watch a horror movie but it is screening as midnight show and I'm not sure for driving back home alone late at night, so we decided to watch any movie that is playing around that time.

The Last Airbender This tells the story of Air, Water, Earth, Fire. Four nations tied by destiny when the Fire Nation launches a brutal war against the others. A century has passed with no hope in sight to change the path of this destruction. Caught between combat and courage, Aang (Noah Ringer) discovers he is the lone Avatar with the power to manipulate all four elements. Aang teams with Katara (Nicola Peltz), a Waterbender, and her brother, Sokka (Jackson Rathbone), to restore balance to their war-torn world. Info here...

I rate this film as two and a half out of 5.

Ok, bye.