I only update this blog on Friday or whenever I feel like writing. I do not like talking much to anyone, but I like to speak on my own to express my dissatisfaction to someone, I do not like to smile to someone, but that does not mean I am arrogant, I do not like people who think themselves good because they are not even good at all in my eyes , I do not like the stingy, I do not like people who think themselves beautiful, I hate friends who backstabbers, I do not like it when someone told me to do something .. It was so hard to have a faithful friend to the end of our life. Sometimes these things frightened me off to make new friends. Besides, I do not mind it at all because i has nothing to do with it. I love to make things work without instructions. That is the way to deal with me. I am very difficult to adapt to new environments and people. This is my weakness since my school days. I am very quiet and only close to few friends only. I really love to make joke, but only selected people who understand my jokes. Those who have chemistry with me. Sometimes I like to look at the petty things too serious and the matter for serious matters, I like to look at it as the petty things. I do not like to be forced to complete the work because my mind can not think when I was in a state of depression. It would be very happy if our daily life is full of peace without the daily rush. How good is it if the world inhabited by people who have a heart of gold and without envy. Caolo betee~


Thursday, December 16, 2010

As he ever say to me..ONE DAY I WILL BROKE THE PROMISE AGAIN...and him was truly right...

Babe...im sorry n really sorry..

I made too many wrong things while we are together. I keep saying sorry n promising, n u keep forgiving me n give me chances. I just dont know whats wrong with me. Why i keep doubting about every single thing that u doing to me. My distrusfull towards u keep growing without im realising its just another disaster that will make u runaway from me one day..

Why im always keep doing that? im just dont know..im too young n i just learned the experienced of the loveness feeling while i met u n be together with u. I just learned the feeling of 'afraid of the loseness', 'the jealousy when im so into u'. I cant even control my jealousy.

I just make u hate me more. Please my saviour GOD. Show me the correct path. I dont have anyone else..i keep asking for "i wish if that could be someone else that can..." i keep begging n questioning that question..without im realising..im too far away from u GOD. Why im so blind n didnt realise that only YOU i can seeking the solace..Only YOU can guide me to the correct path. Not my friend, not myself, not him..but YOU..only YOU.

My Almighty God..always be with me...n show me the correct path..Amen..
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